Tag: transitions

Patience…limited edition

My desire and willingness to post declined significantly once I started working full-time; however, I’m in an adjustment phase.

Being in an adjustment phase is what prompted today’s post. I’m unsure if this is true for anyone other than myself; but, transitions are difficult and they never go as planned.

My job is great and I enjoy it; however, other aspects of my life are in disarray.

Part of the reason I feel things are in disarray is my unrealistic expectations and my lack of patience.

I was out of work for nearly 8 months and bills went unpaid; however, I unrealistically expected to be back on the top, financially after 1 month of full-time employment. I’m smart enough to know that this was crazy but still I find myself criticizing myself for not meeting that unrealistic expectation.

In this day and age we are taught to believe that things happen instantly or at the longest within 2 days…so it’s difficult when things take time.

I wish I had the answers and perhaps a stockpile of patience to give myself

Life Transitions and it’s Problems

In 9 weeks I’ll officially start my post-PhD career, I should be excited. Unfortunately, my tumultuous financial life bogs me all the way down. It’s difficult to focus on the blessing of a new job with good benefits when I’m constantly alerting debtors of my inability to pay.

I also have to deal with the emotional toll of relocating and starting all over again. I’ve started over at least once in my adult life; however, this time is different. This time I hope to be planting roots and making myself a home.

This time I won’t be a student and I’ll be working in my field of choice.

Some have suggested that I simply keep the faith and not worry about things I cannot control.

My thoughts are clouded by unnecessary worries. Yes, my credit score is rapidly declining as I wait. Yes, my health desperately wishes I had health insurance or at least the financial means to see a health care provider. But I am in a position that I can’t do much about anything so my worry is unnecessary.