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The Keep Pile

It’s easy to become attached to items; yet, when people watch television shows that highlight hoarders, they are amused by an individual’s resistance to getting rid of items.

My parents have an outdoor swing and I’ve spent many hours on it. I’ve watched the comings and goings in their neighborhood. I’ve had countless conversations in the swing. I’ve even had some life-changing moments in that same swing.

To some people it’s just a wooden swing; however, in my eyes it’s a place where many memories were made and important events occurred.

Thinking about that swing, makes me think about other items that have held significant value to me through the years.

There’s Mr. Eric the Bear that I’ve had since I was a toddler. According to my mother, the bear was gifted to me by my uncle when I was recovering from having my tonsils removed. Mr. Eric – I wonder where I came up with such name? He was an eggshell colored teddy bear with a brown bow tie. After decades had passed I donated him to a nearby women’s shelter.

Then there was my handheld electronic UNO game and my VTech computer. These were both gifts from my parents during the early stages of my gadget loving days! The UNO game is no longer working; but it’s still in my writer’s desk. Unfortunately during those days when I actively enjoyed this game…I also enjoyed nail polish! Yeah, there’s evidence of my nail polish enjoyment on the game, all these years later. I donated the still working VTech computer at the same time I donated Mr. Eric the Bear.

There’s many other items that held value to me – like my first Haiku poem in elementary or my Girl Scouts sweater for being the local top cookie seller – so when I watch people have a hard time parting with things, I remind myself that I’ve placed several items in the keep pile.

Living with ME

ME…I’m not referring to myalgic encephalomyelitis which is also known as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.

I cannot begin to fathom what it’s like to live with that disease; however, I know all about life with myself.

Perhaps it’s just me, but I get on my nerves. Seriously, there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t irk my nerves at least once.

If you’ve read any of my prior post, you know that I have an unquestionable love for myself although I struggle to describe who I am. So this diatribe about getting on my nerves is not a cry for help or some of the other things that you read about in online communities.

No, it’s simply a fact that I get on my own nerves. To put it another way, my behaviors and attitudes annoy me at least once a day.

Case in point – it annoys me that I even have the nerve to write this blog post. It’s even more annoying that I actually believe at least one other person will read it and another person will relate to it!

I told you, life with me is annoying.

On one of those shows that people watch because “that’s what intelligent people do”…you know the shows I am referring to? The ones that enlighten and educate you…keep that visualization in mind! Now laugh, while I make my point (see life with me is annoying!)

Ok so this particularly enlightening show suggested that in general, people prefer individuals who will just come out and say that they are great. So I bring this up because something else that annoys me is that I often tell people how I’m great!

Seriously, I say and/or write that I’m great in the same fashion that someone says, Today is {insert day of the week here}…trust me, it’s one of my most annoying habits! It should go without saying but I honestly believe that it’s a privilege for anyone to know me. Don’t take this personal, but it wouldn’t be far from the truth if you thought that I am one of those people who believes that you are blessed to read my posts!

I’m not narcissistic; however, my confidence about my talent and gifts (especially in spheres that matter very little in the grand scheme of things) is quite stable. Plus, it’s humorous to see how uncomfortable loving myself makes others.

We are often told to love ourselves and to think highly of ourselves, but when I express just how highly I think of myself – I am side-eyed!

Life with me is interesting to say the least.

I’m a great person and most people would describe me as a kind, intelligent, charitable introvert who is a bit weird. Very few would know just how much my quirks get on my nerves!

This post is really just comic relief! Its important that we laugh at our quirks some times.

I’m embracing every part of myself and I’m loving it!