As I prepare for my next phase in life, I have several concerns about how things will be.
One of the reasons I have so many concerns is because my financial state at the moment is pretty sad.
I’ve never been in a situation like this before. I worry how my future will be impacted.
This is a credit score driven community and with each day that I’m literally waiting on my job to start, my credit sinks.
I’ve spoken to my debtors, I’ve explained the situation thoroughly multiple times. For the most part, they’ve been understanding and treated me well.
They are all running businesses so I completely understand if they are unable to wait until my situation changes.
I worry about my ability to have a smooth transition because of my current credit woes.
I’ve punished myself far more severely than anyone ever should for the financial decisions I made when I had income. I punished myself for helping others who faced unusual financial situations. Oh I’ve punished myself for buying any unnecessary item when I had income.
I punished myself for months and I must say that didn’t help my financial situation. If anything the continual stress weakened my immune system which led to sickness, which led to more expenses I was unable to cover.
At the moment, I’m not in a dark place and I do not feel doomed…but it has taking months to get here.
I cannot make my job start any sooner. I cannot make temporary employment appear. I cannot change the decisions I made when I had income.
However, I can make the most of my days. I can enjoy my family and friends before I depart for my new adventure. I can respectably inform my debtors of my situation. I can accept any consequences I must face during this time.
I can take care of my health to the best of my ability. I can help others and I can smile and laugh.
There are times in life when it seems that we are sinking further into a dark hole. In these times we feel like there’s NO WAY we will get out of this tough spot or perhaps there’s no way we will survive.
You and I are not privy to what the next hour, let alone the next day will present to us and our lives; however, we can do our best to make the most of this current moment.
I have a lot to be thankful for and I’m sure you do as well. I’m not telling you to keep fighting or stand strong; I’m merely suggesting that you cherish the moment and try to enjoy it.
It is too difficult for me to tell myself to have a great day and/or make this day count….at this time in my life a day is too long to even really think about so instead I attempt to make the most of a moment.
Sometimes once the day ends I noticed that I had a good day…but it’s a blessing when I can simply have a good moment.
You know? Like during the few moments that I wrote this post, I breathed a sigh of relief from my current situation. I don’t know if I’ll have a good day and I’m certainly not going to make myself have a good day…but thanks to you, my readers, creating this post for you, provided me some good moments during this day.
I was able to worry less, if only for a moment.