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I believe in me…

When I was a youngster I was always told to believe in myself. If I believed in myself I could be successful in whatever I decided to do. When I was younger I believed in myself, for a fact, my confidence was firm.

Then I had one particularly trying experience with health in 2013, my confidence was barely hanging on by this time and once I recovered physically, my confidence was nearly nonexistent.

Don’t get me wrong, I always knew that I could do some simple things better than others but my belief in myself was not ironclad anymore.

I was sure to make everyone I associated with think that my confidence hadn’t been shaken…but I knew the truth.

I’m not trying to go back to the time before my health event in 2013 when my confidence in myself was great…I want to be better.

I have much to offer the world at large and I must believe in me, regardless of the situations I find myself in. 

One day soon, I will honestly be able to again say I BELIEVE IN ME…

Stop Thinking and Feel

I’m an analytical person and not just because of my specialized training in academic studies. This characteristic some times stifles my progress, my ability to relate to others. When I feel different from my daily average, I analyze why I feel that way and attempt to justify whatever feelings I’m experiencing, however, I often fail to stop thinking and just feel.

My thought process goes something like this: I feel down, I likely feel down because I didn’t accomplish anything today, or maybe I feel down because I don’t have strong relationships, maybe I want new friends and I feel down because I can’t make any, maybe I feel down because I’m overwhelmed with my work, maybe it’s just my hormones, etc, well it’s ok to feel down

Then instead of allowing myself to feel down I pretend that I don’t feel down so that I can skip out on the experience of actually feeling down.

Why is it so hard to stop thinking, trying to fix myself and just feel whatever it is I feel in that moment? 

To experience feelings I have to let my protective guard down and simply allow the feelings to be present in the moment with me.

I feel a lot of things right now that do not make sense and cannot be placed in a pretty bottle or box so I must stop thinking about feeling and simply feel it. 

I’m not sure I can do that.