I’ve been unable to fully appreciate the fact that I’ve received an academic appointment because it starts in August…right now it’s May.
The dilemma I’m facing is that I have no income currently and that has been the case since I walked across that stage in December.
That’s another momentous occasion that I’ve been unable to fully appreciate because of my dire financial situation.
I’m extremely blessed to have had the opportunity to complete the level of formal education that I have. Additionally, it doesn’t escape me that I am one of few to attain the coveted academic position that’s been granted to me.
However, the bigger picture highlights my starting position of being a first generation college graduate from a rural lower socioeconomic area.
I’ll save the rest of the thoughts for research but thinking about my starting position brings me hope. I’ve overcome much in my educational journey so I know that I can endure this phase of financial destitution.
My debtors have been incredibly kind to me and I completely understand that they have a business to run.
My current financial situation is completely of my doing and even if it takes years for me to clean this mess up I will. I take full responsibility for the part I played in this situation.
It grieves me when I’m unable to pay even the minimum payments on my accounts. I try to answer every call from my debtors and each time it takes a little out of me. I have to tell them that I graduated from school recently, my income was tied directly to school, I have employment lined up, but it doesn’t start until August.
I’ve looked for part time work but I’ve been unable to find anything. My parents are graciously providing me housing, without them I would be without shelter.
My situation sucks right now but I’m grateful for the blessings that I’ve experienced even in the midst of this chaotic time.
I have chronic illnesses that are not being monitored because I also no longer have health insurance and if you’ve been to a healthcare professional in the United States while uninsured and no income, you are well aware of the problems with that picture.
I’m proud of myself because although I’ve had flares and I’ve had many low moments as a result of my current circumstances, I have yet to give up completely.
This time has given me a stronger desire to give back to the communities that helped me and to assist students who are from like backgrounds. I want to make sure that we are not forgotten.
I’m struggling right now in ways that I’ve never imagined I would but this is all temporary.
If you have any suggestions of in the meantime work I could do and how I can bridge the gap between now and when my job starts in order to pay my debts and stay afloat…let me know.
Thank you for taking the time to read this post!