Not again…The reality of finding physicians

Since my childhood I’ve managed to have really good, attentive physicians…this was priceless since I had many mysterious and/or chronic ailments.

Even at birth, I required specialized medical care.

Well, I’m an adult now – my childhood and teenaged years , and twenties are things of the past now.

I’m in one of what will likely be many awkward transition phases of life. The place I’m at now is not my home and I’ll likely be somewhere else next year this time.

That brings me back to doctors! As I’ve expressed before I have endometriosis and several of its sister/cousin ailments…my body also possesses some unlikely ailments.

In the ideal world I would be managing these ailments under the care of a physician…but in my reality, I haven’t went to a physician in months

I spent a lot of time at doctors’ offices and in waiting rooms…so now I’m more hesitant about going and I’m more willing to suffer in silence.

Trust me I know this isn’t smart but I’m tired of doctors. I don’t want to build rapport with anyone, let alone another physician

Especially since this relationship will be short lived

The problem is that endometriosis and the various ailments are getting the best of me.

I don’t know how to start finding a good doctor…my last doctors just kind of feel into my lap and they were wonderful

Due to my latest relocation and insurance network – going to these physicians is impossible.

How do I motivate myself to find a doctor to treat the ailments I’ve been suffering unnecessarily with?

Is it even worth it to start another relationship with another doctor ?

Inspirational and Phenomenal, Part 2

The first phenomenal woman shall be known as Charisma. I’ve known Charisma my entire life and since I can remember she has been an inspirational phenomenal woman. For a fact, this woman was one of the two women I aspired to be like when I grew up.

If you only view this woman on paper, you wouldn’t be impressed…especially if it was written in the traditional sense. Charisma is not an inspiration because of some job, career path, she is an inspiration because of her character.

Originally I planned to describe her and her attributes. But like I, she is more than her attributes.

One day I’ll tell you more

Comfortable in my skin

I’m not sure when it happened; it was definitely not a memorable moment…but it happened…somehow I became comfortable in my skin again.

no. This doesn’t mean that I am absolutely, positively, alright with every aspect of my body. But I am thoroughly enjoying, loving myself again.

Although in times past, as a result of the endometriosis that invaded my body, I would look in the mirror and only see…struggle, pain, gloom.

I looked in the mirror today and I saw a woman going places, and doing things. My reflection was beautiful, strong and caring.

I am comfortable in my skin…even in the midst of the pain.

It has been awhile since I posted anything; however, I’m actively finishing my dissertation for the PhD program I’m enrolled in.

I have a lot of work to do in order to successfully finish my program.

This is a major goal in my life and I’ve faced many obstacles along the way. From endometriosis to hearing loss…maybe when I finish writing my dissertation I will post more.

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Blah, blah, blah…who cares what’s on my mind in the middle of the night or should I refer to this time as early morning? Blah, blah, blah